Insanity Jan 28

Being Fat In a Thin World

Its so funny how the body and brain work together. Well Maybe its Just my brain and body. So here i am again, another year and another pound. lol. I starting to think i was living in the twilight Zone and theres White guy In Black And White saying "She Thinks She Gonna Loose weight again". OMG. U know sometimes i walk around thinking that there's no way in hell I'm going to let this weight Win. But then i look in the mirror and look on t.v and see some Entertainment Chick with a two piece and a stomach as flat as a Pancake with butter and syr......... Okay you know I'm saying. This is my challenge, but i know i was not placed on this earth to be on a diet and conscience of what i look like for majority of my time. This has to stop. 
Now as 2011 entered all i could do and say was not again. I'm still overweight?. lmao. and I refuse to do any New Years resolutions. Those are the most fraudulent Promises one can make. I mean about 70 percent of the worlds is promising something and on DEC 31 there indulging in it more than they ever had. Well i know on New Years Eve My plate was full. SMh
But I'm unhappy. Truthfully i love my Family and i would love to be around for a very long time. I know being over weight is a health hazard but damn have you ever ate my grandmother's Steak and Home Fries. whewwwww. Well I'm going to have to be way more discipline then ever before. So again Writing My Self Thin

Writting myself This

So where have ive been. The answer to that question is. I fell off track. I stop managing what i ate and ate whatever was there. School started and because of my poor management skills li stopped scheduling work outs. SO i deceided to go back at mt plan and giving up is not a option. look out for my website. BEING FAT IN A THIN WORLD.COM
it includes Comedy, Workouts and Receipes. will be up 2/2011

Being Fat In A Thin World 241lbs 9/12-0lbs

Being Fat In A Thin World 241lbs 9/5 -3

Being Fat In A thin World

Today I realized that the scale can be a horrible friend. on Thursday I weight myself and i was 239lbs. i felt great because i had not been two thirty something in yrs. i didn't relapse on food because i want this more than ever. I suddenly became obsessed with weighing my self. on sat morning weighed my self and the scale said 241lbs. A little shocked and yet disappointed, i knew a night of drinking could lead to a scale difference. After seeing that i made sure i ate correctly and had  dinner by 5:30pm. @ about 9:55pm, i decided to weight my self again and it said 244lbs. i was so confused and got so angry. i cried like a baby because i knew i had been doing my best. I feel like this weight is a UN-curable disease. I don't feel like giving up but i do have the question? Will i ever change.

Normally i have the best advice. And all i can say to myself is keep going. Support me world

Being Fat in a thin world 244lbs 8/29/2010 -2